Count Down Has Started

Well today I start all my work-up for my surgery on Friday. Things are going well so far but I will be glad when the surgery is over. Am I nervous, yes and no. Will I be able to stay at home for 6 weeks? No - 2 weeks at most I hope. All my friends are super supportive and my family has been wonderful. Not sure yet when I will start chemo but I hope it goes as well as my Moms' did as far as the side effects .

Mom is not doing well. She has had to call again and get stronger medicine for the 3rd time. She will be taking something with morphine in it. I hope I will be able to help her while I am trying to recuperate. Life is not easy but at least it is life.

Thanksgiving was very nice. Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves but we needed Bobby there but he had a super time in "Paree". I am so glad he had a good time. Next year hopefully I will be able to go somewhere with him.

I have got most of my Christmas shopping done and wrapped believe it or not, just a few more items and then I am done.

Have a fun filled week and enjoy life!

Mastectomy

Well this may sound very weird but I got some good news today. All my scans came back negative, I have arthritis everywhere but not cancer. I will need to have a mastectomy and chemo but I can deal with that. They will check my lymph nodes when they do the mastectomy and I will start chemo pretty soon after surgery. I really like my oncologist. She is very straight forward but compassionate at the same time.
I will not be having breast reconstruction at this time but maybe in 6 months to a year. She recommends that I wait and not put any foreign objects in my body at this time. The other good news is that the kind of cancer I have does not usually spread to the other breast. All my friends at work have been super supportive and (2) of them went with me today for the results. They are the best people in the world to have as co-workers. I could not have been as strong without their support. My family has also been very supportive emotionally and monetarily and I really appreciate all their help and money to help with my treatment. It is going to be very expensive but somehow we will make it. I still need all your prayers and love.
All my love and heartfelt thanks to each and everyone, especially to God for answering my prayers and all the prayers from friends and family.
I'll be around to bug the heck out of you all!!!!

Dancing With The Stars

Well it is almost over. Joey is gone. He really put on a good show and he was very
easy to watch. I don't know who I want to win, they each have such a way about them.
Mario is Mario but Emmitt is just a teddy bear you want to hug, he looks like he is having so much fun and enjoying himself. Mario seems too intense sometimes. Oh well may the best dancer win. I enjoyed the preview of the tour for the dancers but Harry Hamlin is just not up to par with all the others, Lisa needs to give him some private lessons.

Have a good week, have fun.

Weight

Why is it when you think you are losing weight you aren't. I know I am not eating as much as usual but the weight is not coming off. Of course I don't exercise and I know I should but the only excuse I have is that I am too lazy to work out.

It is 0300 in the morning and I have been awake for one hour. Went to bed about 8:30 and just could not sleep any more.

So who do you think is going to win Dancing With The Stars? I hope it will be Emmitt because he is just too cute for words and seems to be a "real" person. Mario is probably the technically better dancer but he seems to know he is and does not seem to be as charismatic as Emmitt.

My son is right. It is hard to watch Luke and Laura on GH now. You remember how they were and it seems strange to see them as they are now, especially Laura. She has not aged well but maybe she just needs some make-up to look better.

Well it is time to start another week. Hope this will be a good week for all.
Bye for now.

Scans and more Scans

On Tuesday I had a P E T scan. The results showed (2) areas of concern, my thoracic spine and media sternum. This does not mean it is cancer but they need a more detailed look at these areas to rule it out. I had a C T scan today of my chest, abdomen, and pelvis. Next Tuesday I have a MRI of my spine and a bone scan. I will not get the results until the 14th so we play the waiting game. No matter what the results are I am going to fight like hell, so cancer watch out.

The really scary part is the money angle, so far I have paid almost $600 for these tests. The sad part is I am supposed to have good insurance but I am beginning to wonder. The scans next week will be another $200. I NEED TO WIN THE LOTTERY NOW!!!

KEEP PRAYING FOR ALL PEOPLE WHO ARE SICK AND WE NEED TO FIND A CURE FOR CANCER NOW.

Need to go now because I need to cry for a while and then kick my ass to remind myself what a wonderful family I have. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!

Help

Today I get the news regarding my scan. I am scared but I will be strong.
Keep up the prayers and sending good vibes my way.
Life's a bitch but at least it is life. I will survive!!!!