Chemo # 4

Well I had the last of my AC chemo and now I start my Taxol for 12 weeks, then I go on Femara for 5 years. This time the AC made me extremely tired the same day I had it. I was in bed by 7:30 and slept until 2 A.M. Of course I am on the decadron for 4 days and the emend for 3 days to prevent nausea. I took a compazine tonight because I was a little nauseous not much but they say to take it to prevent it getting any worse so I did.

Tiger and family were suppose to come over for spring break but the car had plans of its own. The green giant decided it was time for a little coddling and some attention for itself and pulled a sneak attack by breaking down. Sure hope they have it back by now. Missed having the kids over but I will be seeing them soon.

Worked all week except for Tuesday which I took off due to a very light schedule. We only had 8 patients. It is nice to have an extra day off. I'm thinking about going on 10 hour days just to get the extra day off each week. Will have to wait until I am finished with chemo to do it. My chemo will be every Wednesday for 11 weeks and then Thursday July 5th will be my last IV chemo. The next step will be the breast reconstruction but not sure when I will start that process.

No big plans for the week end, just the usual stuff around the house.

Have a super week end and a great big hello and love to all.

What If

What if this was your last day? What would you do ? Life is short. Enjoy your time with family and friends. Don't hold grudges. Be happy !!! When I heard about Mrs. Edwards and the return of her cancer it scared me. How do I know my cancer is gone?
I am afraid but I am hopeful. I have so much more I want to do. I want to live. I want to travel. I want to have fun. I want to not be so short of breath.

My greatest joy in life is my family. They are each so precious to me. They are unique individuals and so special in different ways. As I sit here thinking of them I cry and just pray I will be around for years to come to see how they each develop.
Learn, grow and always be there for each other. Above all remember how much I love each one of you.

Looking forward to seeing my kids soon.

More Chemo

Well I thought I only had one more chemo and then I was done but I was dead wrong.
I will need 12 more treatments, one a week for 12 weeks and then a pill every day for 5 years. Oh man and just when I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I can do this. I will survive. I will be bald forever !!! Who cares ? I love the new me.

The good news is my youngest son will be home in 2 weeks for a visit and I just saw my oldest son and his family and had a super time with them.

Planning on going out to dinner with a bunch of friends tonight. One of my friends will be picking me up and bringing me home. Everyone is being so good to me and they are supporting me 100 %.

Please keep me in your prayers because I need all the help I can get and I do appreciate all the kind thoughts and prayers.

Love to all !

Chemo #3

Well I had my 3rd treatment on Thurs. March 8th and drove myself home for the first time. No problems. Went to work Friday morning, left and came down to visit family in Indialantic. I went to Texas Roadhouse for lunch with Tiger. H saw my head for the first time and didnt seem too shocked. My daughter in law then came home from work and commented on my "nice shaped" head. Tiger went to pick up Charles and when he got home he said I looked "pretty cool". I took a short nap and we had B.L.T's for dinner. I went to bed about 9pm because I was very tired.

Today I got up at 4am, read a little, took medicine and ate a small breakfast. I wasnt feeling well so I took a Compazine for nausea. Charlene woke up, I felt better and we went to a rummage sale and several garage sales to find some goodies. Later, Tiger detailed my car while Charlene, Charles and I went to Friendlys for a very good lunch.

We brought Charles home and then Charlene and I headed off to get a wonderful pedicure and go to the store for dinner fixins. We got taco stuff and headed home for another nap while Charlene cooked dinner.

I woke up and we found a (unbelievably close) wig shop. I found just what I was looking for and it is really comfortable!!

HAVING A WONDERFUL WEEKEND!!! Heading home tomorrow.

Boring Week End

Well I did absolutely nothing all week end. My oldest son was suppose to call Saturday morning to let me know if they could come over or not. Guess his phone must be out of order because I still have not heard from him.

I got a little depressed Saturday afternoon and was wondering what life holds for me in the future. Is the cancer really gone? Is my heart really damaged? Will I stay short of breath for the rest of my life ? What should I do ? What can I do ? I literally have no energy to do anything. Will it get better ? I cook dinner and I can't seem to do much else after working all day. Oh well I must keep trying.

Got Zoe groomed Friday and she smells so much better and looks better. Her grooming cost $36 plus tip. I really should learn to groom her but nah not me.

Plan on going out to dinner tonight. Just because Steak and Ale has Prime Rib for $10.99 and I do love Prime Rib. At least I don't have to cook.

Have a great day !!!!

Side Effects

Well do you remember the old way of thinking of chemo ? Look bad, loose weight, vomiting, nausea, hair loss. Well I only have one of these and it is hair loss. I must say I am a very pretty bald lady (LOL). At least not ugly I hope. Everyone says I have a very nice shaped head. As far as the weight loss goes, well I have gained instead due to the steroids I take to help the treatment. So all the weight I lost is back almost. I think I would rather gain weight than all the other stuff.

I am slowly learning how to live without Mom being with me. I miss her so much and we had so many good times together. Shopping and going out to eat was fun. Still have a lot to do to notify people of her death because I just have not wanted to do all that but I will soon.

Love to all.